Zoe's Love Story

  I often listen to worship songs during my devotional time and have a lot of thoughts. Here are some of my musings. I included the songs I was listening to and encourage you to listen to it too while you read. Thoughts:      What exactly is a "heart of worship?" We use the phrase in church often. We'll write songs about it. But I do we ever really explain it? I don't have the most eloquent answers. I don't pretend to know too much. But I feel like it's a heart that has felt the love of God. Heard Him say " I am willing' and responds to the savior with reverence adoration and an "I am willing" of its own.     From the dawn of time the response of our Christ redeemer has been "I am willing." Willing to do what? Willing to love. Willing to forgive. Willing  to forget. Willing to heal. Willing to cleanse. Willing to save. Willing to advocate. Willing to intercede. Willing to befriend. Willing to bleed. The list goes on and on. The lis...

My name is Zoe (pronounced Zo-Way. I'm a pretty simple girl. I love to bake and sing. Dancing seems to come more naturally than walking for me. Christmas is and always will be the greatest time of year for me. And I'm also a girl who found herself believing she was completely unlovable. All the trauma, the abuse, the rejection confirmed this narrative for me. I would sit in the mirror and ask myself "Who could love me?" And like a scene out of a movie I prayed and heard and felt so clearly that Jesus loved me. Not the me that I pretended to be for the world. Not the me who would dress up to hide her internal wounds. He was calling the depressed me, the suicidal me. The me who more than anything just wanted to be seen and told she was more than anything for anybody. It was from that moment and that prayer that He saved me and started to change me. So the honest truth is i don't have a straightforward answer to the question "Who Am I?" I still like to bake...